I had such high hopes for this blog. I told myself that it was going to be easy. It isn't. I'd honestly rather write in my journal about my feelings and talk about them to my friends instead of posting them online.
I've been severely depressed this past month because of my mother. She stole my identity. I found this out right after I sent her an email telling her that she needs to be a better person in my life.
It has been hard. I've just felt so sad. On top of that, I had surgery and got a cold that lasted for 3 weeks. Not to mention a toothache. Man, when it rains, it pours.
Things are looking up though. The weather is getting nicer and work is becoming easier.
I've been feeling overwhelmed with certain aspects of my life so I've taken to cleaning recently. I have been obsessive about my bathroom. I think it is better than shopping and eating..although I did eat a pizza by myself last night. Not good. Not good at all. All my meals lately have been fried and bad for me.
After 7 months, I've resorted back to my hermit ways. I think to protect myself and my friends from the misery that I was feeling. I think the warm weather will help me break out of my shell again. I don't want to end up like my last 6 months in Bellingham with no one to hang out with besides Elliott.
Only 5 months left! 6 until I am home. This year is going by fast. I can make it.
Elliott-
Thanks for agreeing to spend the weekend with me! I'm really excited!
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